Hello dear one, how are you faring today?
It’s Testimony Thursday and today I’m super excited ‘cause I am bringing you a testimony of one of my children (don’t worry, you will understand as we move on) so just continue reading till the end having in mind that someone’s testimony can be the key to the prison someone else is locked in. If you want to be a part of this kindly contact me via firstname.lastname@example.org and lets share that testimony to affect lives in a positive way. This is quite lengthy but worth a read.
Let’s get going now…
So in this interview, present are two characters Papberry (PB) and my Guest (Sam). Will be using the names in brackets through this interview.
PB: Welcome my dear, my name is Adwoa Benewaa Ocran, the manager of Papberry group and page on Facebook, the blog papberry.wordpress.com and of course the author of Today’s Fragrance devotions. I’m not alone in this cos I’ve always got HS giving me the inspirations. So can you tell us why you are doing this?
Sam: Thank you mom, for giving me this opportunity to reach out to the world, I know the struggle is real and lots are going through what I went through. I know that putting this out will give people hope as well as informing them that it is still possible to get out. I pray that by the end of this, lives will be touched, in Jesus name amen.
PB: Tell me how it all started dear.
Sam: It started when I owned the necessary evil (phone) in 2013, I started visiting social media platforms and those arenas served me the delicious food my lusty self wanted, “appealing” pictures. It started with just a picture and as I kept on feeding my fleshy desire, I was grew in that act and graduating from one level to the other, so from pictures, to silly videos, then finally the main act masturbation.
PB: How has this journey been?
Sam: it hasn’t been a continuous process, when I started masturbating in 2013, it stopped along the line and I wasn’t tempted again, then it resurfaced in 2014, but I fought hard but I could only end the masturbating act but the pictures and video I was still stuck to them, it all ended in 2016, but another struggle began in my head, my conscience would not just let be great, without being reminded that I’m a sinner and unworthy of God’s presence. Even though I had prayed to God for forgiveness, I couldn’t bring myself to even think God would forgive me.
It was really weighing me spiritually, But God brought people like you my way and as you taught me the word of God regularly I felt that I could let you in on what was bothering me, and that was a bold step I took and today here I am sharing this on your blog. I realized that this act was devilish. There is definitely a spirit behind this and it is the spirit of darkness, I say this because whenever prayer was absent I faced these things. The devil always kept on speaking to me and accusing me of being unworthy all the time, which always made me feel sad for I thought Jesus would never love me again.
PB: why do you think you couldn’t deal with this issue once and it kept resurfacing?
Sam: One thing I have come to realize is that the flesh reacts to what it’s fed on. So anytime my spirituality game was up with lots of prayers, I do not encounter those temptation, but as soon as I let down my guard I fall, and the flesh wins. So it was because I kept feeding my flesh with what it needed to react. My only problem was I couldn’t flee as the bible says, I was always drawn closer to things that led me to masturbate.
PB: How did you finally break off the spirit of masturbation?
Sam: I started making real progress when I made the decision to quit being the hero and let God take charge, I had been depending on my strength so I decided to let go, and let God, He brought you my way and I decided to be accountable to God and to you, as James 5:16 says, so I confessed also to you and by the grace of God you help me understand thing much better.
Consequently, I stopped going to places that could lead me on (social media), I was praying more, studying the word more to renew my mind every day and fasting.
PB: Did this affect you in any way?
Sam : Yes, I’m a shy person naturally and due to this act I was mostly to myself, my social life was affected badly and I couldn’t even stand the sight of the opposite sex.
My relationship with God was also badly affected, I became just a church goer and the sad thing was whiles i was in this sinful act I was actively involved in church activities and I I always partook in His holy communion.
PB: Is there anything you want to say to anyone going through this situation?
Sam: All I want to say is that with God all things are possible, but the decision to stop must come from you, you fulfill your part and God will do the rest.
You must flee from things that leads you into temptation.
Find someone trustworthy and be accountable to, it helps to be in check and the person can assist you in prayers and counselling when necessary.
Remember, No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. 1 Cor 10:13 (NIV)
Lastly no matter the sin you have committed once who confess your sin and repent He is faithful and just to forgive you and cleanse you from all unrighteousness.(1John 1:9)
Let’s keep the temple of the Most High God sacred by fleeing from sexual immorality.
God bless you all.
PB: Thank you all for making time to read this, till we meet again,